Monday, May 7, 2018

2018! Another Self-Healing-from-Cancer-Sucess-Story...with Caveat


"No one can save another." The Kin of Ata are Waiting For You
"But after that time Augustine refused to do any healing. It was quite definitely 'donagdeo' [off, or out of alignment] she insisted." The Kin of Ata are Waiting for You

Update June 2018
I have been very busy working on my own spiritual growth and on my novel "SJ" for the past couple of years. The book is almost done and hopefully will be an entertaining way for people to learn more about cancer self healing skills. It is a novel based on Steve Jobs' life.

I haven't been taking many clients recently but did take one woman with breast cancer last fall and she is cancer-free now.

Unfortunately, soon after our 2 hour meeting, in which she did uncover the root mental/emotional cause of the cancer, but didn't yet fully realize or understand what she had done, she contacted a psychic healer and had a telephone treatment. It, apparently, was very dramatic and soon after that that she discovered that she was cancer free...and gave the credit to the psychic healer instead of to herself!

This is very sad when this happens. I know that most psychic healers are very well-intentioned. But it is still "donagdeo" or "off."

I used to do psychic healing. And it is very possible to send powerful thoughts of love, health and healing to a person and have them become symptom free. I did it many times and I thought I was doing a good thing. But eventually I realized that I was not giving them fact I was stealing something extremely very valuable from them...their inner PROCESS!

I was taking away (distracting them from) their god-given ability to know they could heal themselves. I was taking away their power and responsibility (they go together). If a "healer" of any stripe, takes away a person's responsibility, power and process of self-healing, they are also taking away the person's ability to repeat the process for themselves with any other illness or injury they might get in future.

Back then I was treating the illness as if it were an enemy and had no value. I was treating the illness as if it was just something to be gotten rid of...not learned from. But what I eventually came to understand is that the illness is truly a gift...a ally. It is meant to be a messenger with the news that somewhere one has picked up a rotten belief that is making one sick. And when one has discovered the true helpful belief then one has not only healed but has added spiritual gold to take with them on their eternal journey.

The rotten belief can be assumed to be one of long-standing if it gets to the stage of producing a life-threatening illness. Probably at least a few years if not most of the life time, the belief has been nurtured and has spread to other healthy parts of the individual's belief system and poisoned and compromised them as well. E.g., "my husband makes me unhappy" can lead to a series of generalizations such as, "other people have control over my life," and "I am powerless," and "Life sucks." "I wish I were dead..." etc.

In this particular case of the woman with breast cancer whom I talked with last fall, I noticed that she had a great deal to say about her husband, much of it expressing negative feelings. However, eventually, after I had repeated back to her her own words, she said "I don't think you like my husband!" I said "I don't know your husband. I am just repeating back to you what you have told me about him and how you feel about him." She was projecting onto me her own feelings that were difficult for her to face. They were unacceptable to her and so she projected them onto me. She was trying to get rid of them, but I refused to accept them as having their source in me. After more discussion though she did face them to a degree--enough to heal herself of cancer. She faced her feelings of anger and resentment and began to better understand her personal power in dealing with him. Recently, I heard from a mutual friend that she had changed her relationship with her husband significantly after our talk. That was what healed her.

However, like most people in our culture she wanted to believe in outside authorities. We want to believe that someone out there knows more about us than we do.  However, we truly  are the experts on ourselves. The other day a friend of mine, who knows this, related an exchange with her doctor that left us both limp with laughter. When she resisted some part of his treatment he said to her, "Who knows more  about you and your or me?" She said "ME!" and walked out. I applauded.

According to Dr. Christiane Northrup  students are literally taught in med school to think of themselves as medical deities. They are taught to be BIG authority figures. Hence when they give a designer diagnosis, or say "its incurable", or "there's a very low chance of survival," they are doing "medical hexing"--a phrase Dr. Northrup contrived for the powerful negative suggestions many doctors give their patients rather than just saying with humility "I don't know." Or "Allopathic medicine doesn't know."

But psychic healers, who are just as well intentioned as most MD's are, are doing a similar thing. They are making powerful positive, authoritative, pronouncements about themselves and their power to heal you. They believe strongly in themselves and the goodness of their goals and methods. They believe strongly in health. And they see the results--people usually heal, but often temporarily , or they contract another disease. Doctors' treatments often end the same way...unless the patient has made some significant change towards the positive  in their emotional/mental life.

As I mentioned above, I know much about this because I used to be there. I recall the shock I got when someone once challenged me and my psychic healing skills by saying it was a bad thing that I was doing. She was pretty judgmental, but it  started me on a line  of thinking that led me eventually to the Vesica Pisces Method of  Self -Healing. The Vesica Piscis is an ancient symbol that tells us "All is within...." including the power to heal ourselves

Everyone can heal themselves of anything. Its a God-Given Power. But sometimes it's nice to have a guide who can help you get in touch with your Inner Being so that that part of YOU can take over your guidance and healing for you. We are meant to work on our health together with our Inner Being in their loving, patient, allowing way. We always end up happier and more empowered when we do this...not to mention physically healed.

I know that eventually my recent client, who now thinks the psychic healer fixed her, will come to know her Inner Being...her Self.... and will discover the true source of every healing she ever encountered in her body... herself/Self.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016



         Please go to the pages listed above and read "How to Heal Yourself of Cancer" first. Then I invite you to read the Posts below in the suggested order given. (I couldn't figure out how to re-order the posts physically on this web-page.) 

        Then read the other pages above as you feel inclined. 

       And PLEASE leave comments--either appreciative or critical. I need to know how to improve this website.

Thank you.

 PS  (Or just follow your own intuitive inclination :-)







13. AN OPEN LETTER TO "The International Cancer Conference"

Tuesday, May 27, 2014


 The thing is that we are all in the grips of a pan-cultural limiting belief--including doctors. And since doctors are given a very left brained , intellectually, rationally oriented education, the part of them that could have led them and medical science to our true healing powers has, basically, been educated out of them. So they cast about within the narrow confines of the intellect or ego-mind...for an answer that is not in that arena at all!

Lester Levenson, originator of The Sedona Method found this out for himself. He was a brilliant man with several graduate degrees. But had become extremely unhappy and ill. The doctors gave him 2 weeks to live. Facing that he began to explore beyond his intellectual/rational mind and by 3 months later he had found all of the answers within--which is where I found them as well. He healed fully--not only his body, but his relationships and his understanding of money. He had "worked hard and amassed a fortune" but then discovered the money hadn't been coming from his hard work or genius, but from his expectation. He simplified his expectation of how money could come to him and became so wealthy he could give it all away--now knowing how he could manifest whatever he desired, very quickly. He went on to live another 40 years--in excellent health and happiness.

Unfortunately most people who are sick or who are caring for a loved one who is sick are functioning within the same limitations Lester faced at first--a belief that healing must come from some outside source. It is nobody's fault that they do not understand the enormous power within  themselves. It's been educated out of them. (We all had it as babies). 

It is just that we are only beginning to emerge from "The Dark Ages," of healing. Our spiritual evolution is calling us to move into the light, but it can only invite. God only invites. God does not tell us what to do. God has given us the great gift of the freedom to use our consciousness however we wish. And basically we are constantly faced with a choice of using our small mind or our large mind from the moment we awaken in the morning til we fall asleep at night. Unfortunately--or, since everything is actually perfect, fortunately--we are operating in the dark. The answer is there, but we must literally FEEL  around for it.

I was listening to an audio book last evening called Heaven is Real by Todd Burpo. And I saw this problem strung out among all of the incidents which are recorded in the book. The problem is that we are taught to THINK  rather than to FEEL.

In the true story, the Rev. Burpo, his wife and two children have been having a very bad time of it, but seemingly having come to the end of a long string of Job-like challenges, they take a road trip to celebrate. By the way, those Job-like challenges could have led the family to pre-knowledge that worse was coming if they did not attend to the messages they were getting and do something about it.

Specifically the father had broken his leg and then had gotten breast cancer. Had he been educated to keep his right brain/female mind --the mind he was born with--functioning he could have seen that the broken leg was a message likely about not standing up for himself. And later the breast cancer could have suggested that he was nurturing others more than his inner child was happy with. Pastors are supposed to be selfless in our silly society. No one is. We are all meant to put ourselves first in an enlightened-loving way. But I suspect he did not know that. And his ignoring it was scaring the heck out of his inner child. When we don't stand up for ourselves and put our own needs first it leaves a deep, child like part of ourselves feeling very insecure.

So then in that family gestalt, the youngest child, Colton agreed on some higher level, to be the one who expressed the problem for the family in the next round of messages. He got appendicitis--which is a physical representation of  extreme fear. He was showing his Dad that man's fears, on his own child level. By the way, we do not out-grow childish ways--and are not meant to. Childhood is not left behind. It remains as our foundation and as such needs constant vigilant attention. "Do I feel happy in my child-self?" we need to ask ourselves frequently. But they did know about this.

So, they encountered yet another staggering challenge in the form of the near-death of their 4 year old child Colton. He develops appendicitis but the doctors and medical technicians consistently misdiagnose the child's problem and he becomes inexorably worse until he is on the brink of dying. The symbolism of the "trusted doctors" being untrustworthy,  I interpret as a symbol of both the father's and the doctors' (and likely the wife's too) over reliance on the rational/intellectual mind. Our whole culture does this, but many are moving beyond this--as we are all meant and all will eventually. The intellect is NOT reliable by itself. It overestimates its own intelligence and it eschews the far greater intelligence of the intuitive, super-rational mind. They are meant to work together with the intuitive mind leading the way.

So Colton's parents have been extremely compliant with the doctors, technicians and hospital staff--trusting that they all know more than themselves. BIG MISTAKE.

The Vesica Piscis symbol tells us --ALL IS WITHIN. Their authority lay within themselves--most especially within the child himself.

At the very beginning they told the doctor, and continued to mention, that they believed it was appendicitis. However, the doctors  all insisted that their tests were reliable and that they did not point to appendicitis. So they did not treat him for that...and he got sicker.

The docotors' rational minds were saying "it's not appendicitis" and the parents' intuitive minds were telling them " it IS appendicitis." And the latter were correct. The problem was that for 2 weeks they vetoed the information they were receiving from the right brain/intuitive mind and allowed the intellect/left brain remain dominant--both in themselves and in the doctors.

So it could have ended tragically. Colton's father, as a pastor, had seen many people die. He saw death in the face of his extremely emaciated, hollow-eyed, limp child, who had not eaten for 2 weeks and who had been throwing up constantly.

When he allowed that in fully he finally broke emotionally. He raged at God and with that emotional movement his God-Self was able to reach his soul-personality self and kick him into action.
He removed his son from that hospital, took him to another, where he was immediately diagnosed correctly and operated on. He did recover fully.


Intuition is correct 100% of the time, but being able to tell the difference between an intuitive thought and an intellectual "good idea" is a subtle art. It can and will be learned. But it is a process, albeit an inevitable one for all who wish to "go home."

As the human race grows it can choose to descend into yet more darkness. God will allow more suffering if people choose that. But truly the way to end suffering is to turn inward. Meditate on the Vesica Piscis symbol and it will help you to do this.

We need to stop projecting power and responsibility out onto others--especially doctors, hospitals, pharmaceutical companies and insurance companies. We have the power to keep healthy and to never need any of the above. I do--at this point however--believe that if we have created things like ruptured appendices, or heart failure, or severe wounds that we should avail ourselves of the emergency measures that allopathic medicine offers.

But in conjunction with that, in order to bring about healing as quickly as possible we should be turning within and asking ourselves, "how did I create this reality? What is the message behind this? What misalignment have I created  between  my intellectual beliefs and what is really true?" The Great Mother is Truth --both emotional and factual--and as extensions of her we want to telling ourselves and others the Truth as often as we can. 

Emotional truth is the most important Truth. For our emotions are messages from our God-Center within. If we are experiencing negative emotions around something, we would be wise to move away from whatever we are feeling negative about. If we are feeling positive emotions about something, we are safest to move toward it.

These emotions are often in conflict with seeming "rational truth" and "practicality" or so-called fact, and "what is seemingly real." Reality is only a thought form we have built up by focusing on something alone or together with others. All negative events and things are thought forms we have miscreated by being out of alignment with Truth. So to focus on them and fight them is only to add energy to that false thought form. It is not real. WE change our reality  by following our positive emotions and staying focused on the good things we want. We create feelings and vibrations first  that later become events and things.

And I am not talking about pasting "happy faces" on everything. We must tell ourselves the Truth. If we are feeling badly, we must allow those feelings. We must face and feel them. And when we do, then an inner psycho-spiritual movement is set up.  We automatically begin to move in the direction of healing and all that is happier. We can consciously assist that process by using our will power to avoid thinking the same old negative beliefs, and by asserting our will power to find some belief or observation that feels even slightly better. These are just choices and choices are powerful. We are here to make choices.

Slowly we can work our way out of negative thought patterns to the wholly positive ones that are Truth.

So God does not want us to suffer. When we find ourselves suffering--even a little--we can know that we have gone off the rails somewhere; that we are now out of alignment with The Divine at the center of our being--that lovely place with the beautifully feminine feel to it. (By the way--most cultures refer to the soul as "she").

As mentioned above, in the book Heaven is Real, the author, Rev. Todd Burpo relates that eventually both he and his wife reached emotional breaking points. After weeks of  struggling to trust the doctors and of stuffing their doubts and anger about the fact that Colton was only getting worse and was now close to death, they both cracked--she in tears, he in rage. Both are good.

And with that cracking--that allowing of emotional authenticity --they suddenly were able to move forward and to make a decision to remove Colton from the hospital where he had not been helped and to move him to another where he was quickly diagnosed as having a ruptured appendix. He was operated on and eventually all the toxins were removed from his body and he is now a normal 15 year old (in 2014).

Again, as I mentioned earlier, the family, in my estimation, was getting many strong messages prior to Colton's nearly dying, that indicated they were out of alignment with emotional and spiritual Truth. Religion is hard on ministers and priests. They are expected to be Christ-like or God-like without having gone through everything He went through to get there organically. They attempt to put on a superficial imitation of Him and when they cannot (because they have not gone through all of the steps) they end up often times being quite inauthentic. They stuff natural feelings, or hide them. They avoid the actions that would have flowed naturally from those judged and rejected feelings, and in doing so sometimes end up doing great harm to themselves and others.

We are not perfect. But we are perfectly imperfect. The Great Mother wants desperately for us to feel Her unconditional love for us--and to have it for ourselves--no matter what we have done "wrong." At the same time She offers constant guidance away from hurtful beliefs and actions and towards positive ones. But she does not judge us.

Many pastors are quite judgmental, overtly towards themselves and sometimes covertly towards others--especially their own family. Oftentimes there is a son who acts out all that the pastor-father is repressing. Colton's sister says of him, "He may have died and gone to heaven, but he's no angel." The father is repressing his feelings and the actions they would lead to naturally because he judges them to be bad or wrong or un-Christian. And so the son acts it out for him. The father judges his misbehavior or fails to understand its origin and so tries to fix the son. But the only fix is within himself. Healing comes from unconditional acceptance of all thoughts and beliefs--no matter how "sinful" some might think them. It comes from a slow working away to the foundations of those thoughts, beliefs and feelings until one finds the gem of Truth--a positive thing that The Great Mother wants you to have! 

Many religions have great laundry lists of "sins," most of which are false. 

There is only one sin, in Truth, that I have discovered so far. It is that:

Violence against the self or others, while God allows it, is at the same time  strongly discouraged. And one of the most violent things one can do to oneself or others is to not allow their emotional honesty. For it cuts them off from God. 

So somehow the family--in all their well-meaning efforts--were out of touch with what God really wanted for them--and so they suffered for their rejection and resistance by creating broken legs, breast cancer, gall stones etc. all in the year prior to Colton's near death experience. And with that experience I think they must have had some deep inner shifts in their beliefs, for things got better.

 Todd began working on the book. They perhaps deepened their trust in God to take care of them. And Colton had his precious experience of heaven as well as a first hand understanding that he has an eternal soul that is separate from the body and which does survive death. We all do. I am sure there were others. Breast cancer suggests nurturing others before the self and harboring hidden resentments about it. Broken legs suggest not moving in a new direction one is being called to or not standing up for one's self. Gall stones suggests that one might be living in a galling situation that one is trying to accept, but without allowing for the certainty that improvement is possible and desirable.

In the book, Todd Burpo relates  his son's NDE's including his consciousness leaving his body and going to heaven where he received much comfort and assistance. He also tells about how Colton was able to move around the hospital in his out-of-body-state and to make observations that were later verified.

This brings me back again to the most important thing to know, and the reason why the Vesica Piscis Method works. We are all pure consciousness--now and always. We put on physical bodies for the major purpose of giving ourselves conscious feed back about the condition of our consciousness...of our the mental/emotional state of our soul personality selves (SPS).

If our SPS is a little out of alignment with our God Center Self (GCS) then we get a hang nail or a stubbed toe or something else minor. If we are a lot out of alignment we get very sick. Or we have a bad "accident."

So, it is never enough to just heal the cancer with this method. One must continue to use the basic method to heal oneself of everything that arises--including minor things. Learn to nip things in the bud.  Because negative or limiting beliefs are formed by repeatedly thinking an out-of-alignment-thought. There will always be some negative sign when we first start to go off the rails. But I will expand on that in another post.

A wise friend of mine noticed that she was often stumbling  as she walked down the sidewalks of her city. She began to pay attention to what thoughts she had been thinking just before her misstep and realized that she was always  thinking some critical thought about someone just before it. When she started to make an effort to consciously allow her feelings about the person... and  to take them as a reflection of how she was feeling about herself, and then to allow more positive feelings about herself and others...she stopped stumbling so often.

We are here to expand. Expansion is always positive. It always feels good. When we diminish ourselves by espousing limiting or negative beliefs we literally shrink, spiritually.

So, most doctors do the best they can within the limitations of their understanding. Unfortunately medical schools not only teach a purely superficial, physical, intellectual approach to healing (one that never works) [but more on that later] and they also oftentimes teach their students a great arrogance and authority along with their science. They teach very little about respect for their clients; and nothing about eliciting their clients' own knowledge of their bodies and their powers of self-healing power.  

But we are not victims. We are just here to learn to not revere the outside--outside authorities or so-called " reality." We are here to learn to stop projecting our own power, responsibility, beauty, wisdom, knowledge and authority out onto others. We are here to learn to turn inward and trust our own innate knowingness.

 We create our own reality. We build it up like a house,  brick by brick  and then it is suddenly done and we move in. We live in it. But if it is not a happy home we can repair it, or tear it down, or  just move altogether. A home that has cancer in it can be remodeled. Keep the best, the positive, and eschew the rest. Allowing all feelings is positive.

Keep working on your home by creating beautiful comfortable renovations and additions (new positive beliefs) that feel God-Centered. As we do this we get healthier and healthier in every way.

Monday, February 24, 2014


I recently moved to a small town in Maine and at the center of the village one can find a post office, a fire station and a country store. I was alone in the tiny dining room of the latter, having breakfast the other day, when an older couple came in and sat down. This being a friendly community we soon were chatting away. They asked what I did  and I replied I was a semi retired Mind/Body Counselor, who had specialized in cancer, but was now writing a book about it. They asked more about that and I told them it was called "SJ" and it was a novel based on Steve Jobs' life--a fantasy in which I met him and helped him to heal himself of cancer.

I noticed that their friendliness was chilling a bit and soon the woman shared that she had had cancer 40 years before and had looked into all types of cures. Then her mind took a leap and assumed that I was talking about Faith-Based Healing, which she stated she detested because it "blamed the victim" as she put it.

The husband then added that he was furious with the parents who had taken their daughter out of a hospital because they believed God would heal her--and she died. He got up and left at that point. The woman changed the subject and I did not try to pursue the subject further as I could see their minds were made up and there was no purchase there for new information.

This accusation though--that the method I offer blames the victim--is one I have heard many times before--from perhaps 1/3 of the people I discuss it with. The other point people often bring up is that children get cancer--even babies-- and so this method cannot possibly be based in truth. But there are very good answers to both of those objections--if people will listen.

I will address the "blame the victim" issue in this post and "why children get cancer" in another.

With "blame the victim" there are various hidden suppositions and false premises lurking. There is also the ego mind doing a few of its favorite tricks--namely judging, fearing truth and change, and being pessimistic.

The major hidden false premise is that "someone must be at fault when something goes wrong." This is typical of our left brain, rational mindset. I call it a masculine mind set also. It prevails at this point in our human evolution, but it did not in the early days of our evolution and it will not in a future evolution of our consciousness. There is another mindset which is more feminine, one that does not need to place blame. If you do not believe me about the masculine feminine slant to this mindset then I would invite you to think of the last time something went wrong when a man was involved. Most men seem to immediately go to feeling responsible for it, then to guilt, then to shame and then to placing blame elsewhere. Their ego cannot tolerate being thought badly of--or of having made a mistake.

Women who are not too deeply steeped in the patriarchal mindset do something different when things go wrong. They try to create community in order to find a solution. This community might be an external social one or an internal spiritual one.

What my spiritual understanding has led me to is that when something goes wrong, there is no one to blame, but everyone involved is responsible for it to one degree or another and there is no use in trying to figure out who is most responsible. In fact it could easily be said that everyone involved is 100 percent responsible.

So here is where people really get uncomfortable and start to scream "you're blaming the victim!" But that is really a very pessimistic and negative point of view. It is calling the glass of water half empty rather than half full.

What we are really talking about here is power and responsibility. They are flip sides of the same coin. And when you give one away you give the other away as well. It is best to keep the whole coin in your own pocket. In truth that is where it belongs and it cannot be given away anyways.

What I am saying is that we all have the power to heal ourselves, by using our minds properly. In fact Dr. Albert Schweitzer said, and I fully agree, that "all healing is self healing." He meant that no one anywhere on the planet at any time in history was ever healed by somebody else--no matter how many people believe that doctors and medicine and their various machines and chemicals and whatever healed them. No Reike, no faith healer, no herbs, no Christ, no diet, no form of outer healing whatsoever ever healed anyone. It was always, without exception, the person themselves that healed themselves. They might believe someone or something else healed them, but invariably the person underwent some change within their consciousness in which they aligned themselves more closely with their Divine center and Ultimate Spiritual Truth--and it was THAT that healed them. Nothing else.

So when I ascribe full healing power to you, if you are an optimistic and positively inclined in your thinking, you will respond, "Wow! I have the power to heal myself! Cool!" But if you are pessimistic and negatively inclined you will respond, "You are blaming me, the helpless, powerless victim, for my own suffering!" And you will reject the awareness of your own innate power to heal yourself.

Your having cancer is not a bad thing. It is a gift, a teacher, an ally you have called to yourself in order to come back into alignment with who you really are--a Divine, Sacred eternal being who chose to live a human life in a human body that will give you constant feedback as to your alignment, or lack thereof, with Truth. Your emotions will too. Ill health and negative emotions mean you are out of alignment. Good health and positive emotions mean you are in alignment. However, beware of pasting happy faces on over genuinely unhappy feelings. You must first feel the uncomfortable feelings honestly, then change the negative beliefs behind them, act on the new positive beliefs, and feel the new genuinely happier feelings that arise from that.

We live in very outer directed times. That is the nature of the left brain, rational, male mind at this point in history. It is the mindset of choice of most adults in the world today. Be aware though that the rational mind can be directed to look inward, and would do well to do so. But ultimately there is a right brain mind that is vastly larger and more powerful, a mind that we can engage that will do all the hard work the rational mind thought it had to do--and do it much more easily, efficiently and quickly.

And the good news is that we all have one of these and it costs nothing to engage it and use it in our self-healing. In fact the Universe is so wise that it is making all other form of so-called "healing"--or "false healing modalities" more and more painful, costly and esoteric, as well as less and less effective. And the insurance to pay for them is also becoming more costly and less available. This is no happenstance, nor is it bad news.

A friend of mine wrote today that when adversity strikes, she no longer asks, "Why is this happening TO me?" But rather, "Why is this happening FOR me?" She looks for opportunities. And the opportunity that is being offered by cancer, by rising costs of conventional treatments, by the physical pain of these, by ineffectiveness,  by the invasiveness,  by immune system compromising chemical and radiational treatments-- is this: YOU HAVE BECAUSE OF ALL THE ABOVE THINGS YOU DON;T LIKE, THE OPPORTUNITY TO FIND SOMETHING VASTLY BETTER. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO UNDERSTAND THAT THE CURE FOR CANCER IS HERE NOW. IT LIES WITHIN YOU--WITHIN YOUR MIND. YOU HAVE THE POWER TO HEAL YOURSELF NOW. IN FACT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN HEAL YOU. NO ONE ELSE CAN DO IT TO YOU OR FOR YOU. AND THAT IS GOOD NEWS. YOU ARE WEARING THE RED SHOES. NOW JUST CLICK YOUR HEELS.

Here is how to click. Accept the coin of power and responsibility, which you can spend on making yourself well. Here are the basic steps again:

  1. Ask yourself what is bothering you most in your life. 
  2. Be brave and face the truth around this, even if the position seems untenable. (Eg. my husband no longer loves me and that feels unbearable to look at.)
  3. Assume that, since it feels bad, that you have a misconception (false belief) around it. (Eg. I am unlovable, or I can't live without him. This is horrible!)
  4. Imagine that the converse of that misconception or untrue belief is the actual truth.(Eg. I am lovable and I can thrive without him. This is a great opportunity!)
  5. Notice how good it feels to believe this positive thing.
  6. Embrace the positive Truth and apply it in your life.
  7. Enjoy your spontaneous healing from cancer.
So if you have cancer I invite you to try applying this formula. Keep facing down more and more uncomfortable truths and looking for the empowerment and spiritual expansion that is the opportunity within each seeming crisis. 


Tuesday, April 9, 2013


(A  post showing a simple outline of the steps to self-healing from cancer is lower down on this page. See "How to Heal Yourself of Cancer" )

A few thoughts to keep in mind while pursuing healing from cancer:

“Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.” 
~Albert Einstein~

"Consciousness, not matter, is the ground of all being." 
~Dr Amit Goswami~

Everything in this website is based on these concepts. Our thoughts have vibration--they are the most significant and powerful vibration there is in our world. So we could be mindful about what thought vibrations we are sending out and receiving. For the Universe will send us more of whatever vibration/thoughts we entertain repeatedly.

Emotion fuels the manifestation of thought. The more powerful the emotion the faster and more intense the manifestation. But be careful what you are feeling as you pray for or visualize the outcome you desire. Agonized pleading for a solution may bring an agony filled solution.

 For example, the winter I was 13 years old, I desperately wanted to be slim, attractive and popular. I was plump, wore glasses, had spots and was painfully shy. Each night I would cry myself to sleep and visualize the beautiful me I wanted to be.

 School closed for that year and in the early summer I began a 3 month journey to getting my wish. However, it came to me in an extremely painful way -- BECAUSE this way was a perfect match  vibrationally to the vibrational state of emotional pain I had asked in!

This is how it unfolded. My mother took me to the dentist for the first time in years.  There we discovered that I had to have several teeth pulled. My mother, being a Spartan,  insisted on no pain killers or anesthesia whatsoever. It was an unbelievable nightmare. Afterwards I was so deeply depressed, my mouth and jaw hurt so badly, and I was so nervous of getting food into the holes in my mouth... that I simply stopped  eating almost completely!

Over that summer I lost 40 pounds, became anemic, healed from that,  got contact lenses, a new hairdo (with an auburn rinse), new stylish clothes and I learned how to use eye makeup lightly to augment my large teal colored eyes. And when I entered high school that fall I had a figure with curves in all the right places--unlike before. 

Not surprisingly perhaps--but surprising to me-- no one recognized me! I had to introduce myself. Suddenly I was very pretty and popular! My dream had come true!

However, if, during that previous winter, I had done my visualizations (intense use of imagination) with feelings of joy at the expectation and belief that I really would be pretty and popular, then the Universe would have sent me a matching event of similar vibration. 

There is never any need to suffer --FOR ANY REASON-- in gaining our hearts desire.

Peace and Blessings,

Friday, February 15, 2013


Cancer has a spiritual component that is at the root of the physical manifestation. In order to eradicate cancer one must always remove or change the negative emotional, mental, spiritual cause. When that is done--healing happens. However, any time cancer has been healed--seemingly-- due to surgery, or chemo, or radiation or herbs or acupuncture, or after  the application of any  purely physical level treatment has been applied, this is a misunderstanding.  These purely physical level treatments may seem to have caused healing--but that is not the case.

 Every time--without exception--the cause of healing is actually mental and emotional changes the person has made within themselves. When positive changes happen in the mind  and heart  of the person suffering with cancer, healing begins.  IT WILL ALWAYS BE THOSE CHANGES AT THOSE LEVELS THAT HEALED THE PERSON AND NOTHING ELSE.

However, the coincidental application of the physical level treatments oftentimes confuses where responsibility should be assigned.  The physical treatments usually get the credit for the cure. But this is simply not a true assessment of what actually happened.

Many people have healed themselves of cancer by applying psycho-spiritual corrections--in their consciousness only. Our bodies are out-growths of our consciousness. The health of our consciousness is always reflected in our bodies. Cancer is simply an outgrowth of some very serious misconceptions about what is true. Cancer is a symbol of some negative erroneous assumption that has been adopted into the person's belief system.  And when it is removed and replaced with THE TRUTH, the body very quickly heals.

Sometimes the problematic belief is painted so big and so bright, as it were, that it is hard to see. It is often a culturally accepted belief. Or the belief may involve thoughts and feelings about someone very close to the person who is dealing with cancer. In fact this is very often the case. The ego-mind has drawn a boundary around that belief and/or that person and has posted KEEP OUT  signs. In other words this is an area that feels very fragile to the person.  They will not look at this area because there is likely a lot of shame or fear attached to it.

For example, cancer is very often related to feelings of anger towards parents or spouses or children. But the ego-mind may very well have a belief that certain unhappiness will ensue if the problematic relationship is examined too closely--and if genuine feelings about that person they are close to were to be honestly felt--why then the whole relationship might fall apart! And the ego mind believes that that would be a very bad thing for its happiness.

I can only say that feelings can always be trusted, in fact it is a requirement that feelings be trusted in order to be happy and to move forward with any kind of psychological or spiritual growth. Emotional honesty is crucial.

The elephant in the living room must be acknowledged and embraced as the sign of good fortune that he is. Climb up on his back and he will carry you HOME!

So let's plunge right in. Cancer is often related to long held anger and resentment that is now festering and growing--and is hidden under the surface of the conscious mind. It is not hard to access it, even though it may be "sub conscious."  The  so-called subconscious is just the corner of our mind where we have swept all the awareness of  events and feelings that we felt we could not face at the time they happened. However, once these events and feelings are faced and the belief is turned 180 degrees around, AND, action has been taken on the new positive belief--the body heals--oftentimes miraculously quickly. And sometimes it happens so naturally and  that the miracle is not noticed!

The tumor was there and growing for months. The natural inner mind/emotion/action changes were made. And very shortly after that the tumor was simply not there! It may be like it never existed. So there may be a temptation to not give yourself credit for having healed yourself. 

Please do not do this. For this is a healing method that can and should be applied to everything. As life progresses new misconceptions will arise, and if they are held long enough a new illness will arise. So at that point you will need to look back at the fact that you healed yourself of cancer, and you can heal yourself of this new thing too.

I have gotten to the place in my life where I do not wait for illnesses and bodily discomforts to turn into serious illnesses. All big illness are preceded by a series of minor but increasingly emphatic bodily disturbances that should be paid attention to. Any thing other than perfect health indicates that something is off in our belief system. We have gotten ahold of an incorrect assumption.

 And as I said earlier some of these incorrect assumptions may be cultural ones for which you have been rewarded. Someone patted you on the head and said "Good little girl (or boy)."  But often these beliefs simply served someone other than you. So they reaped some immediate benefits of a shallow sort from your self-destructive cooperation.

For example, a women might feel very successful in our culture by totally sacrificing herself for her husband, family and community. She will garner many kudos for this and will feel good about herself. Meanwhile, on deeper levels in her psyche she may not be feeling good at all!  She may be legitimately wondering wondering why she and her happiness always has to come last after everyone else. So she has a common mistaken belief that it s better to give than to receive. And she may also believe that it is a mistake to complain when one is unhappy. And she may believe that the happiness of others is more important than her own. She may believe that self sacrifice is what God wants of her. She may belief that what others think of her is more important than how she actually feels--emotionally: that the secondary happiness she receives from the approbation of others can make up for ignoring her own desires and natural impulses towards primary happiness for herself.

But all of these are mistaken beliefs. They often lead to nurturing others and not the self. That leads to breast cancer. The truth is one must put oneself first. When one does follow one's own bliss others will benefit. Most women feel a natural urge towards  caring for their families, and happiness as a result of that--BUT--only as long as their needs are getting met too. There is enough to go around for everyone.

So in conclusion, we are primarily and eternally consciousness. The bodies we have are just equipment that comes with this particular reality. We live in many other realities. We have a body here to give us physical obvious feedback on how our spiritual health is. Any physical discomfort at all, tells us that we are out of alignment with spiritual truth. The worse the pain, or the more life threatening the illness, the more we are being shown that our spiritual health is seriously out of alignment with Truth.

But this should be seen as good news. It is nothing to fear. We will not be shown how bad we are. We will only be shown how much happier we could be if we allowed Truth in. And if we are happier, others around us will eventually be happier too.

For example, if a woman is not happy in her marriage, it may feel very frightening to her ego mind to think about that. She may want to cling to the outer form of the marriage--that is to stay married at all costs-- rather than to place a higher priority on her own deeper happiness. So her ego mind might fear looking at the emotional Truth of her unhappiness because she sees her husband as her source of physical/financial or social/emotional security--but the Truth is--he is not. The Divine being at the center of her SELF is the source of her well being and security--all kinds of security. By listening to her emotions and allowing them to lead her towards whatever makes her happy, she will find herself feeling more and more secure.  She can then stop looking to her husband for things he is not meant to provide.

Her husband may choose to be a channel the universe uses to bring her security sometimes. But he should not be relied upon to always be that security. He is just acting as a cooperative component of her own allowing of abundance. But at any time he might step out of that role and it will be immediately filled by something else. To be truly safe she needs to discover the deepest source of her own security--her own Divine Being--her God Self--The Great Mother at the center of her being.

So if this woman has perhaps made concessions to her husband in order to keep him around, so that she can feel secure. She may wait on him hand and foot. Or she may give him sex when he wants it but she does not. Or she might be working and putting him through graduate school when she actually is wanting to be home having babies. She may be turning a blind eye to his philandering. There are any number of things she may want that she feels she cannot have because he might not like it--and she erroneously believes she needs him for her basic happiness. She  may be keeping her emotional truth a secret (even from her self). This could leave her very angry and resentful towards him on a deep level. That anger and resentment may only get expressed obliquely as "accidents": she burns his toast continually, forgets to keep the check book balanced, or she might even get sick ("not tonight dear I have a headache") in order to avoid intimacy with him. But yet she still might cling to him. But some part of her is angry about  whatever she has given up in order to not rock the boat with him and to keep him around. And she might even feel guilty about what she has done to him covertly to express her anger.

In any case the only answer is emotional truth first with herself--and then with him. With that will come great relief. Then she can move slowly towards figuring out what it is  really "floats her boat." There will be no trade-offs when she comes into alignment with her deepest most essential self--a Self which IS TRUTH--DIVINE TRUTH.

This same sort of truth telling and subsequent actions based on that truth will set anyone free from any form of cancer or any other illness.

Thursday, February 7, 2013


I know that millions are still being spent on research to find a scientific cure for cancer, but truly the search is over.

The reason the scientists have not announced the cure is because they don't know it.  They are looking side of a very small box when the answer is outside of the box.

The box is called "the physical level of our being." Allopathic medicine practitionsers (conventional medicine), although extremely well-intentioned, seems to be blind to most everything that is not on the physical level. They appear to believe that "Physical problems have physical causes and physical cures--ONLY!"

They do not recognize fully yet--although many are beginning to wake up to the truth--that we are also spiritual, mental and emotional beings--not just physical. And they do not yet realize that the actual root cause of physical problems lie in the spiritua/mental/emotional realm.

The solution to the problem of healing cancer is so BIG and so bright that very few people are seeing it. But it is staring us right in the face. People have been curing themselves of cancer since time immemorial. But somewhere along the line we began to give up power and authority to others for our healing--when actually the power to heal ourselves of ANYTHING lies within ourselves-- AND NO ONE ELSE!

So all of those seeming cures produced by whatever allopathic medicine believed in at the time--drinking glass fulls of mercury, or applying leaches... right down to chemotherapy, radiation and surgery are not now and never have cured anyone of cancer! The person's own mental shift cured them.

Each person who experienced a healing from cancer did so because on some deep level they underwent and spiritual, mental and emotional shift in their being. Perhaps under the stress of being faced with this illness, they co-incidentally decided some specific thing  in their life had to change--maybe because they felt they had little time left in this life--so what the heck! They might have decided that someone else's behavior was no longer acceptable. "If I only have a year t live, I am not going to take that anymore!" they might have thought. And so they simply would not allow themselves to be treated badly or discourteously by that person any longer. Or they may have finally faced some dark secret they were ashamed of and said--what the heck--I've only got 6 months, I might as well face how badly I have been feeling about that. And so with facing certain "true feelings" about themselves or others they began to feel better. Landfills of old emotions were dug up and sent through the inner "waste-to-energy-plant."  Rotting garbage of emotions came up to the surface of their consciousness, were aknowledge and allowed and acted upon (safely for everyone.)  They examined their beliefs (thoughts) around the subject. They noticed large patterns of thinking and behavior on their part or on other people's parts. They changed some basic belief around a particular subject. And finally they took action on their own behalf--action based on their new positive belief. It would be action that, while perhaps risky in terms of how others might react, made they-themselves feel better.

For example, one person I know was secretly gay. However, they had married a person of the opposite sex, in order to please their parents and society. But it did not please them in their most basic self. Resentments grew towards their marriage partner--although it was not their fault--and they also felt bitter towards the culture they lived in for being less than accepting of different lifestyles (they worked in the academic world.)

So after having been diagnosed with cancer (in the genitals) they finally faced their own gayness and became more honest with themselves emotionally...and then with others as well. This brought great relief emotionally, which immediately allowed much more energy to flow through the body. (Restrictive, tight, pinching mindsets create restricted, tight, pinched body-sets. They shut off energy flow in the body.) Energy needs to flow freely through the mind first and then it will flow freely through the body.

So the whole secret is to face what one has been keeping secret from oneself (and often others too) pull it out into the light. Let the energy flow around it. And then act on  new positive beliefs that become apparent. The body will heal itself naturally, all by itself, with that.

So doctors are not used to thinking in this way...that the mind is actually the root cause of our illnesses, but it is. That is why science has not come up with this big bright obvious naswer--that if we are unhappy or angry for a long time it wil eventually makes us ill--even unto cancer.

 In future I see the psychologists and other types of emotional/ mental counselors as also being the  catalysts for physical healing as well--the new doctors. In our not too distant future, the counselors will assist people to their own self-healing.

Dr. Albert Schweitzer said it decades ago--" ALL HEALING IS SELF-HEALING."  And so it is. This website gives the basic steps for bringing about one's own self healing, but if you need help with them, I would be happy to assist you. I normally get $60 per hour for telephone counseling. But if you don't have it I can adjust my fee--down to 0 if need be.

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You can reach me at 207 443-3522 for an appointment. All the information you need to heal yourself is in this website, for free, but don't be ashamed to ask for help. Sometimes it easier for another person to see the forest you are lost in. While we are in the middle of it, it can be difficult to see the forest, because  the trees are in the way!

Peace and Blessings on Your Journey to Health!
Love, Brenda